what are you faking enthusiasm about?
there is something you keep showing up for with energy you do not actually feel. the performance is smooth enough that nobody has noticed. but you have.
every day there's one live question, the same for everyone. answer it anonymously, see what other people said. it's all gone in seven days.
answer today's question →write down the thing. it might be a project, a plan someone is excited about, a role you have taken on, a social thing. now write about what you actually feel when it comes up. not what you show, what you feel. boredom, dread, nothing at all. write about when the gap between your real feeling and your performed feeling first opened. was it always there, or did something shift. think about why you keep performing. is it kindness, obligation, fear of disappointing someone, or something else. write one sentence about what you would rather be putting that energy toward.
- write about the exact moment you switch into the performance, what happens in your body.
- think about whether anyone else involved might be faking it too.
- write about what it would cost you to simply be honest about your lack of feeling.
this is for you if you have been smiling through something lately and feeling strangely hollow afterwards.